It could be intimidating to read a blog post with this title. I am mostly posting this today for my own benefit. This whole blog idea is a way to get some of the crap that is in my head, out of my head. So, with that disclaimer out there.....read on. Perhaps you'll recognize some of this "crap". Sorry so crass, it's my mood.
I am so glad that I have the scriptures. I know that they are very powerful when used in prayer. Today I am feeling consumed. My mind is a constant dripping faucet of negativity. I feel overwhelmed at times. Today is one of those days. I read a verse today that helped me feel some peace.
This I call to mind and therefore I have hope;
Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed,
for His compassion's never fail.
They are new every morning;
Great is your faithfulness (Lamentations 3:21-23)
Thank God for new mornings!
I think maybe by the time I turn 45 I might figure out how to be a grown-up. I wonder if I will always feel like a 15 year old. I am always amazed that so many of my close friends describe me as a strong woman. I think I give off that persona. It's my stature and intense expressions. I am after all, an actress. At times I think it serves me well. But there is something about being an actress that allows you to hide pieces of yourself away. I know many actor-types that would probably beg to differ with me...or maybe not. But; I do think its a fine line between reality and the escapist tendencies of the artist. It's just too dang easy to "act" like we know what we're doing instead of doing the work of being, becoming, and changing. What I'm trying to say is this; I'm tired of acting strong; time to BE strong! I am unlimited! I feel a change coming on.
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