There are definitely stormy times in life. There are times when I know that things aren't fair and there's nothing I can do except stand watch over my attitude. I tend to get gloomy and stuck. I guess the word for it is depression. However, I have also noticed that its ALWAYS darkest before the dawn, and things have a way of working out as long as I put my faith in God, believe in myself, and keep on climbing. I have learned that because I am old..... that's what it takes, time. "Peace is right there Kami,...Hello?? Grab ahold of it.." How many times did I hear that little voice, and chose to worry instead. What a waste of time.
"Listen to me, you who have been borne by me from before your birth,
carried from the womb;
Even to old age I am he, and to gray hairs I will carry you.
I have made and I will bear, I will carry and I will save." (Isaiah 46:3-4)
To paraphrase I would put it this way;
"HEY!! You hard-headed woman! Listen up! I have things under control and I always have. Start listening! Start doing! I got your back!"
I recommend listening.
I moved here to Riverside two years ago and I didn't really want to. It would take up a novel if I told you the whole story of these last two years. To sum it up I could say, it's been kinda like a rollarcoaster. It's been restorative, it's been healthy, hopeful, playful, and magical. This is where I am supposed to be. I know that now. The climb has been good. I'm up high enough to get some perspective now and for the first time, in a long time, I feel really happy about my life. It feels weird and new, but I like it. Yipee and Hallelujah!
