I started this a year ago....but I finished it tonight

         What you allow is what will continue...

I really don't think that God is into punishment, but he allows us to punish ourselves.

For me that's how I seem to learn, the hard way, it gives one perspective, wisdom and strength. I allowed it all. The good, the bad, and the ugly.

Perhaps this is not "healthy" but it's what I have cultivated, I mustn't dismiss that I have, at times had a dark cloud hovering over me. I have at times been ridiculously negative and had to fight against the smothering feelings of self pity and self loathing.

I am thankful for my Christian upbringing. I have always had a rock to cling on to when the seas of life were thrashing me around. I love church. I do not always choose to go, but when I do; it's family. I believe in a personal relationship with my creator. It is one of my favorite things that I can claim; a "personal relationship" with God. Just mine.

I have been unhappy with the effects of time on my body. I am 47 today. That is weird. As I write this, my husband is handing me a Reese's Peanut butter Ice cream cup and I am gladly eating it. Tomorrow, I am meeting with my trainer at the gym. I signed up for a year of training; my birthday present to me. I met with him once already, we did weights and worked my upper body and arms. I couldn't move the next day but it feels good. Not only that but my trainer guessed my age to be 33-35yrs. So yay me!

God has shown His face to me. I have turned a corner from fear;.....and He had to take me to my personal bottom line before I saw it. I am that stubborn.

I am only allowing good and kind things this year. I believe in people, and their goodness and I believe that if I am kind and good I will attract that in my own life. I am claiming new and exciting things.

This is my birthday wish to me.

25 Truths

    I saw this going around on Facebook for a while; and I kept thinking, "if nobody tags me, then it's a blogpost".....well, nobody tagged me. Which is probably a good thing. Because who knows what's gonna happen.

TRUTHS:

1: When my sister was born, I received a Gumby and Pokey doll. I was a month shy of being three. It was 1969.
2.That same Christmas, I received a drumset from my uncle, and I gave my sister the chicken pox.
3. I have a very good memory compared to most people I know
4. In 3rd grade I was in a Christmas play called "Mr. Grumpy's Workshop",  I played Big Doll #1, That was the beginning of my theatrical career.
5. I went to a small private school and I feel that it sheltered me.
6. When I was 19, I was attacked by a German Shepherd.
7. I love Lucy....and every episode.
8. I love dogs (but I am still a little scared a German Shepherds)
9. I am reclusive
10. My friends are my friends forever
11. I used to hate being the eldest child and I wanted a big brother
12. When I was 13 I almost ran away from home
13. I am a great cook
14. Calm under pressure
15. My parents are still married
16. I strive to be the best aunt to my nieces and nephews
17. Animals listen to me
18. I taught myself to play the piano and the bass
19. Teaching is the most surreal thing I've ever done
20. I have a large birthmark on the back of my left leg. Known to my family as "Wheat bread leg" due to it's resemblance to toast.
21. I would rather stay home than go out.
22. Some of my old friends call me "Klam".
23. I love old movies
24. I am a good mimic
25. I have many dreams still unfulfilled